Unexpected accident

I went home excitedly. Finally i can meet up with my eldest sister who i havent seem her for two months already. I wish to do a lots of things with my family members because now i know to cherish and treasure every moments with them. That day, i reached home quite late. I felt tired and exhausted. I still didnt have a chance to share my experiences with my family. I lay on the sofa for a while before i go to bed.

The next day, should be a wonderful day, but the call made it differently. My mum shouted while she answering the call. Unexpectedly, my mum told us that grandma had passed away, with her shivering tone. All of us shocked and depressed. The plan that made by us disrupted. We do nothing because we need to back to kangkar senangar, pagoh, johor, to help my grandma to do the funeral. The journey on the way backed to johor is very long, long, long. I hope i can't arrive the destination. I wish not to see the my grandma with no breathing, but i did. At the moment, i hope my grandma is still alive, but it seem imposssible. Sorrow ambience around the house, all the relatives are there, crying and crying.

My grandma is a very nice nice women, take good care of us and pampered us a lots. She never scolded us. I looked at her for a long period of time, but she didnt gave me any responses.My heart is broken, i could listen the sound. Did you? Tears rolled down on my cheeks..

I don't want grandma to die.. please wake up..please please..

Grandma, i could never see you again..

UM, i'm coming soon

i'm waiting anxiously for the upu results to come out.


Haha, i can enroll into Universiti Malaya (UM) as the course of mathematics acturial and financial. Since now still having a week for us to prepare, i really need to settle all the stuffs and documents as soon as possible. HEhehehe, the excitement and rejoice ambience still around me, it's so great for me to continue my study in my life. Although i know that acturial science is not a easy course to study actually, i will insist with my dream also with my determination and gut. Really hope that i can do it with strongly persistent.

UM, I'm coming soon..

One month celebration

Two cute and playful children again...

My auntie is feeding the baby..Hurry up, look at the baby, is him very cute? haha, don't be jealous..

The baby named Zhi Han is sleeping soundly.


A baby is borned on 4th of May with full of happiness and blessing..Everyone is expecting the day of his coming. Since now is during vacation, all of my family members except 2 sisters are going to johor to have a look on him.

Wah, so cute..

My uncle and aunt are very excited although this baby boy is their 4th children. All of us also happy with it. Hope the baby can grow up healthy..

On 4th of June, my uncle invited us and some relatives to a ''sin yang'' restaurant to celebrate the full month of the baby. With the delicious dishes and wonderful ambience, we are enjoyed the night. The spot is fulled with many innocent children. Laughing and smiling are hang over the spot and raised up a forgettable day. We took some photographs as memories and adults also sang for several songs..

I hope that everyone will have a prosperous life..

Confronting the Fear of Failure

Many people would rather be odd, hostile or overworked rather than be seen as a failure. With the tremendous stress we place on success, this phenomenon is not surprising. Successful people are winners. People feel sorry for losers and no one wants to be pitied. At the same time, we are constantly bombarded with truisms to cushion the effect of a failure. These are phrases like, ' We learn from our mistakes' or 'You can't win them all, everybody's wrong sometimes'...

This is one of the passages that i have read and it seems attempt to rise my spiritual. It touched my heart. I'm acknowledged it will be a good lesson for me. As i now stand on the diverge roads that i should choose one of it to continue my life after. It seems burdensome for me as i didn't confirm what the road that i must go ahead and am i afford to handle all the incidents that are going to happen around me..

I'm hesitate, scare, afraid, frighten... and think it over and over again... What should i do?

Reading this passage seems give me an injection of encouragement and confident. Really, we need to confront the fear of failure and think positively. Actually, the greatest fear is the fear of not being sure what will happen. So, most of us can learn to accept and deal with the worst if we really know what is coming.

=D..Yeah, for me, i decide to pursue the dream that i possessed before. No wonder what is the difficulties that will defeat me through the road i taken, i strongly believe that i can cope it with my persistent and determination. Go ahead with what i'm going to experience and i will learn more about ' life ' ...

I believe, believe and believe...

Update

im so sorry for a long time din't update, this is because after the matriculation programme..i become more lazy...hehe..also too prosperous being at home..of course, that got numerous interesting events that had happened around me..



now, im staying in my uncle's house in parit raja, johor..the connection here is quite poor..cant online frequently.. but im so happy to live here and get a lots of informations..high-spiritual..

ok=.=, will update soon..

CNY celebration and reunion dinner

The great title of our CNY celebration..






two chemistry teachers in KMPH..a motivator..give lots of guidances..thanks ya..

12 of performers in mini orchestra..

so nice for us to take the photos...awesome..yeah..

we fight for the best with each other..

our mini orchestra' performance..harr..look like so professional..

awesome..great achievement we obtained in that night..i have been participated in the performance of mini orchestra..12 of us and including a conductor. We tried our best and kept on practising before the celebration.. While reaching the time for us to show off our skills and confidents..a bit frighten when saw all the people fulfilled the Dewan Dato Bahaman..but actually felt nice while seeing many of them would like to watch our performances..not only mini orchestra, there are many events too..wushu, taichi, playing diabola, 24 seasons drum, drama, flat dance..

i have made a small mistake while playing the drum..but never mind because it's over and i got some of the thoughts and lessons..this activity has made all the chinese people to reunion in KMPH since there are a small amount of us..we also enhanced our friendship and formed the bond between each other..after the celebration, we took a lot of photos as a memory and played until midnight..it;s great.. the celebration had been ended with beautiful notation..everyone seem to be satisfied and happy..

The next day of the CNY celebration, we had the reunion dinner together..our performers also prepared a series of events to enlighten our hearts..full of happiness and rejoices..the mechanical team would like to display the meaningful videos and photos..so heart warming..everyone treasures and appreciates what we experienced and tried hard in the whole progress...

i will remember the day we are together till the rest of my life..

Homesick

i am sick..not only for physical but also for my mentality..the works here are too much..i got great pressure..last week, i got menstrual pain an i had a terrible feeling..the world since to be corrupted at a moment..horrible experience since i entered this college..i really can't withstand the pain and immediately went to seek for a doctor..but suprisingly the doctor gave me the KK medicines ( one of the paracetamol), the most common medicines..At once, i really dont know that medicine can cure for menstrual pain la..but for the government' clinic, normally is like this..they prefer to give u KK whatever for any diseases..haha.. just accept it..

i feet tired and miss my home..need to back home this week..

Besides, there are some interesting events in KMPH..like the CNY celebration..prestigious ambience on that particular night..2 days before, i also went outing with my friends..enjoy a full day activities..and yesterday i had took part in the Pesta Balapan..participated on 400m event..
fortunately, i got a 3rd prize.. the first medal i received in the year 2009..a good beginning..

that all for this post because i have no mood to write more..but i will brief more about the events i mentioned above when i back home..will update soon..=.=